Sunday, August 27, 2006

boo!

service was good la. heh. i m quite sure u dun hear ur pastor give a sermon on sex every week. heh. see the bible is better den the karmasultra. lol. somehow i feel that God is speaking to me in terms of being the most relevant but yet maintain that righteousness. First was, pastor bernard, den the thing sort of came to my mind during my chinese mock compo, today, pastor kong said it again during service. hmm. we ll see wad God says later la.

bleh. i m like dead tired man. i wish i had no school tmr heh. mondays are always my most dreaded days. love wednesdays thou.

anyway. just some thoughts la. sometimes i just stop and observe people around me. den i wonder. and even thou i m like some small fry la. but its just something that sort of burdens my heart every time i see people keep to themsleves at one corner, or rush off after cell or service, its the fact that not everyone can talk to everyone. like if we had to put all our names into a bowl and draw names and make these two names drawn engage each other in a conversation, we cant be sure they ll talk. its kinda sad. one of my best frens fell and one of the reasons was cus he didnt feel a sense of belonging. i just dun want it to happen to two other of my good frens and the others whom we hardly see around due to some reason or another. but den again, fellowship is a choice, opening up is a choice, we can feel for them, but if they cant breakthru the mentally, if they cant make these choices themselves, wad can we do.

sometimes its not whether u want to or not. its u have to. and if u feel u cant, den thats where God comes in and instills that peace and that conviction. get convicted and find rest in Him today!

and when u get back to school. u see sad faces around. u urself get into that day to day stress. sometimes i wish i could stay happy and make happy all the people around me. but sadly its not to be. i just pray and pray and pray, they can find faith, hope and love. and i just pray and pray and pray, that they ll find it where i found mine, in Jesus Christ. Lord, this day, help me shine for You, let the world see so they may glorify You.

and i remember talking to john last night and i was telling him, sometimes i look around at wad the world has, and i asked him, den why i cannot have. and the answer is simple. the world doesnt have God, but u do. and i picked it up from there, that if u seek ye first the kingdom of God, if u leave it all behind, all these things will be added unto u! den i cant help but ask myself, would we have been better off if we never got together in the first place. cus this year my spiritual life has just been such a wreck. but i trust in my Lord, dat everything happens for a reason and a purpose, dat everything will work together for the good of those who love the Lord and are called according to His purpose. nic tan. stop living in the past, stop thinking about the wad could have been, stop living in the your hope of the future, wad it can be, its not up to u, live for the present, live for God, find that vision He has for u, everythings gonna be alright, everythings gonna be alright. learn to let go.

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A thousand times I've failed
Still Your mercy remains And should I stumble again
I'm caught in Your grace
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

Your will above all else
My purpose remains
The art of losing myself
In bringing You praise
Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame

In my heart and my soul
Lord I give You control
Consume me from the inside out
Lord let justice and praise
Become my embrace
To love you from the inside out

Everlasting
Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending
Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart
Is to bring You praise
From the inside out
Lord my soul cries out

From The Inside Out, by Hillsong United

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